I few weeks ago I wrote a post about wanting to run away. Its been a frequent pattern in my life and it reared its head again recently with a few big personal upheavals that occurred this spring. Its a fear response. Fear of change. But change is inevitable, it is as Heraclitus says the only constant.
It’s been a tough last couple of months. A lot of introspection. A lot of crying. A lot of sitting with the myriad feelings that have come up. Recognizing unhealthy patterns. They are still there and can be very enticing to fall back into but the first step is the recognition.
And I feel like I’m finally coming to some clarity. Feeling like I’m learning the lessons that life keeps trying to teach me. That I’m ready to break the cycle. That I’ve come out the other side of this situation, bruised but not broken, and in a better place. And staying put for now, the urge to run away is subsiding.
I’m feeling healthier and more energized. I’m feeling motivated. I have a clear path that I’m following. And most importantly I’m seeing the glimmers again. Those little pockets of happiness and joy in everyday things. The beautiful pink of the clouds at sunset, the sound of the birds swooping over your head at the beach, the smell of the lilacs on the breeze. Too often we focus on the negatives – its the way the human brain is wired. But the brain is neuroplastic and can be rewired if we give it the right type of input.
Change and growth is not always pretty, its not always linear. Learn to let go and flow with the universe. Stop trying to control everything and hurry things up. You are exactly where you need to be right now. Embrace the change.
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